My name and I wear it proudly!!!

Before you are even born your parents pick out your first name, something that will start forming your true self. My mom had to deal with a lot before I was even born, see it all started when my grandpa was told he had cancer not just one type of cancer but many different painful types. He had to deal with different forms of treatments, and some just hurt him worse. He had to deal with his throat burning at all types. Mom told me a story one time, that she went to Sonic and asked them if she could have a Route 44 cup full of ice cream at first they did not understand why she wanted it, but then they found out why and they understood. She would take it back to my grandpa and it would make him soooo happy, and whenever she had the chance she would go to Sonic to get him that Route 44 of ice cream because she knew that it helped him feel better atleast for a little bit.

 

I miss my grandpa more than anything and it breaks my heart because I have never got to meet him. He died 2 months before I was born and mom told me that he was soooo excited to see me and he tried to live long enough to see me born, the nurses told him that his projected time to live was till somewhere in April, but he could not hold out any longer. Mom traveling all the way back home hours away  in a bad snow storm to surprise grandpa for Valentines Day, and she walked into the house, and they told her that he did not make it, they did not want to tell her before then because they did not want her to be upset and stressed because she was still pregnant with me.

 

 I could lie and say I don't miss my grandpa, because I never meet him but that would be soooooo untrue!!! Everyday I walk around and when people ask me what my name is or how to pronounce it or even now to spell it I break a little inside because I was named after my grandpa and I wish I could have met him, I wish he could have held me in his arms, but in the end I know he is watching me from heaven. I miss you grandpa more than you will ever know and Happy Anniversary I wish you were still here with Maw-Maw and then you could have celebrated it together!! This is something that has always been hard for me to talk about but in the end it is MY NAME AND I WEAR IT PROUDLY!!!!!!